Amedeo Modigliani - Portrait of Lunia Czechowska |
Wedding Blues
I must admit that,
after
all those years,
spotting
you beside the canapés
gave
me quite a start.
I
mumbled an excuse,
retreated
to the bar
and
now stand hidden in the crowd
nursing
an indifferent Jack and Coke
and
a scar
I’ve
just discovered,
right
below my heart.
How
long has it been?
I
flip the curl-edged pages of my life
and
find us. Early college days.
Future
yet unmapped.
Shared
mates, shared classes,
breaks
in the canteen.
Bumpy
bus-rides all around the town
on
evenings when the sun refused to set.
One
night, a coy techno-haloed fumble,
and
back to our daily selves.
Then,
as in a sepia print,
that
morning when you stopped seeking me out,
and
a mutual friend, whose name I can’t recall
ventured
an unsubtle hint
that
some guys are heartless, play too hard to get,
or
are just too dumb
to
know they have struck gold.
It
was then it dawned on me
that
our manoeuvres in the dark
which
I considered a good-natured lark,
might
actually have been
that
strange, elusive thing called Love.
All
told,
I
have since then compiled
a trove
of such goodbyes -
an
album to dip into on rainy afternoons.
It
should have been so easy, then,
to walk right up to you,
pluck
useless, well-worn phrases
out
of the fan-cooled air.
“What a surprise!
You getting along?”
“You haven’t changed at all!”
“Looking great, my dear...”
(All
true, this, by the by)
Instead, I plan a quick escape,
greet
the bride and groom
and
head back to my car.
I
hold your silhouette and a budding song.
It
will, I guess, suffice.
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